Mariah recorded and alt rock album in 1995 and it was released under the name Chick, with lead vocals by Mariah's friend Clarissa Dane and Mariah's voice disguised as a hidden layer. “I was playing with the style of the breezy-grunge, punk-light white female singers who were popular at the time,” Mariah writes in her memoir. “You know the ones who seemed to be so carefree with their feelings and their image. They could be angry, angsty, and messy, with old shoes, wrinkled slips, and unruly eyebrows, while every move I made was so calculated and manicured. I wanted to break free, let loose, and express my misery — but I also wanted to laugh. I totally looked forward to doing my alter-ego band sessions after Daydream each night.” The song “Agony” was written by C. Dane-Davidson (Clarissa Dane), D. Sue (Mariah Carey) and W. Vlad (Walter Afanasieff).
You take and take and take and take some more again
Because you can't avoid those voices in your head
You fall away from me and wallow in despair
You bruise and rape yourself
You are beyond repair
Agony, ecstasy
Are the same for you and me
Agony, ecstasy
Are the same for you and me
I break the door down and I find you on the floor
You softly mumble that you want a little more
You close your eyes and slip away to neverland
And turn into the boy that used to be a man
Agony, ecstasy
Are the same for you and me
Agony, ecstasy
Are the same for you and me
Somebody kill the pain
Somebody rack my brain
Somebody kill the pain
Agony, ecstasy
Are the same for you and me
Agony, ecstasy
Are the same for you and me
Repeat
Written by C. Dane-Davidson, D. Sue, W. Vlad.
Produced by Chick.
